| I hit rock bottom...it finally came. I have been dealin with so much "stuff: this last month. I've constanly put up a wall and a "i'm happy face"24/7...when things were not ok. I haven't let people in. I could feel myself everyday becoming more and more judegmental,bitter and pesamistic. Like I wasn't happy. I was looking for something i couldn't find. Last night everything came together and i had to have a metldown for me to realized that this ALL had happened for a reason. It was no mistake it was all happening. God was tryingto grab my attention. I finally realized it all today. He wanted me back. I had been putting him in the corner. I gaev it all back to him. I felt such joy and peace that i had never evre expericed in my life. Work was truly wonderful. I had such a great time and God gave me such a heart for everybody. Like I have been so upbeat and happy today.... I AM HAPPY!.............................So what I'm saying is that ....I'm sorry if i have been mean, rude,talked behind your back ..w/e..i just want to make peace w/ everybody. So another decision is that God is coming first in my life...and i'm taking a break from any guys.. I need to find myself. I'm not going to like/date/consider anything for a while. I have my own man. lol |
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| OMG...its gonna snow...lol So all these special report: Winter Storm 2005..are like soo freaken funny.. I mean has nobody ever seen snow before?? Its all the news stations talk bout...so in Illinois, we would never close school until we had like 7 inches and the roads, were really, really bad. So i guess its some excitement so what the heck..let the texans have their drama w/ the
snow. lol Its gonna be kewl to finally get some snow..I love winter snow..and its not a winter storm, just snow.
Its fun to drink hot chocolate and watch the snow! 
Yah...and we might get an early sorta of xmas christmas present...2 dogs. one for me and aunna. Life is sorta exciting right now..I'm
looking foward to soo many things, its really fun! I have some new goals, I am really determined to make happen and
So i'm in such a wonderful mood!
you know it!
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